A square peg in a round hole.

Yes, so I realize my thoughts are rather esoteric.

But it remains that they are mine, and are part of what makes up who I am.

At first I thought that this makes it harder for me to bridge the gap between the hearts and minds of others and myself... but then hor, this is only partially true.

Being different doesn't stop me from understanding others, I think, not when I make a phenomenal effort (at the very least, an effort effort effort!) to listen and be able to empathize with others

But what about whether people can understand me?

Uhh.. I think it will be very nice la, because everybody wants to be understood, and I am no exception but while it's important, maybe it's also not that important.

After all, who am I? At the very least I am certain that I want to devote myself to others, and in doing so, must I not logically seek to love, more than to be loved, and to understand, more than to be understood?

That at least I can do, I think.

And maybe it is worth something, to be a glimmer of light in the deep.

I like

This is my dog. His name is Pippin. Quite handsome right. He's my buddy. Even though we don't get to see each other very often since I'm away from home he's always really happy to see me come home. I think it might be because I talk with him a lot. My big sister likes to go talk to him too but she's not around that much so.

Hmm. Anyway this post isn't about him. This post is about animals.

I like animals you know. And yesterday I saw this dog and tried to make friends. It walked away from me at first (Bitch! haha) but then later it came back to let me just ngusap its head. Then today I saw this cat lying along the walkway near the Block C cafeteria and it let me rub it's head too.

I like animals. Yeah. And more than other people I think, I'm not drawn to them just cos like they're cute or anything. (*Cue shrieking girls, Eek eek*) I do la but more than that I like going up to them and looking into their eyes and seeing how they move around or react to us. It's nice because it's so.. different?

I think animals are straightforward. They don't have to think about complicated stuff or think about whether they look nice or whatever people think of them when we pass by or any of the other million superfluous things that pass through our minds all the time.

Yeah so it's nice to be with them, I think it helps untangle the snarls in my mind, and there are plenty. Hmmh. What d'you think?