Monday, December 19, 2011
20/12/11
There are many kinds of sad - some are good, not all are bad :')
It's been a great 2.5 years in Kampar. After so many farewells, both in groups and with dear individuals, it's finally dawning on me that I'm leaving.
What can I write which may contain the breadth and depth of what I've been feeling, thinking, doing, witnessing and experiencing in these past few weeks, let alone the last 30 months?
Maybe I can explain how I feel. I feel a bit sad, and very moved. I also feel very humbled. A lot of great things have happened here in Kampar - and although one might say that I was deeply involved and active in these things, here at the end I feel more like I have been a spectator. I am a witness of the work of God. A servant also. That is all.
Maybe I should also talk about my thoughts for the future. Nothing's certain, but I have a lot of reassurance, a lot of hope and a lot of confidence that things will work out for the good.
And I pray that my brethren can also share in this hope.
Another adventure! And the hope of joyous reunion :)
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"although one might say that I was deeply involved and active in these things, here at the end I feel more like I have been a spectator. I am a witness of the work of God. A servant also. That is all."
ReplyDeleteI love this!
Haha I don't think I articulated it very well though. But I think you get it. I suppose it's the paradigm of a servant who recognizes God's hand that accomplishes things.
ReplyDeleteAnd great things have happened! I've seen so many lives change, mine too :)
You speaks like someone i knew. Paul, in his letter! haha
ReplyDeleteSometimes I think you feel too much - but that is a normative statement, of course. I'm was once an acquaintance, and I was often puzzled by the behavior of you and 'the flowers'. But I think I may have an answer. See
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You're likely to disagree, of course. But like Sheryl Crow sings, 'if it makes you happy/it can't be that bad/so why the hell are you so sad?'. Happiness is simple, but unhappiness can be labyrinthine.